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Touch starvation. Yes. Yes. But this time with…

But what about gellert being touch starved, in like the opposite way? Like he’s dying to touch someone without violence and horror, longing to have someone positively react to his touch for once?

I love it. He touches people to torture, to humiliate, to mock; even when he touches gently it’s to manipulate and deceive. That’s not to say he doesn’t take any pleasure from those things – he does. But it’s not the only thing he needs. It gets tiring.

When he sees Albus it brings back memories of touching gently, innocently, for the pure mutual pleasure of it. He can’t resist – he reaches out a hand to caress the curve of Albus’ jaw, praying he won’t flinch away.

He can see Albus’ entire body relax and sag forward into the contact, his face melting into an expression of bliss, and something in Gellert’s soul slots back into place.

Touch starvation. Yes. Yes. But this time with Albus and Gellert. Since his relationship with Gellert Albus has never really been touched. Nobody caressed his cheek, nobody stroked his hair, etc. And then Gellert gets caught and sits in a cell in Macusa. I bet Albus visited him to “face the enemy”, but when the guard leaves them alone, Gellert starts touching Albus. He wants to end it, he knows what his former liver has done, he feels guilty and sick, but leans in and goes all soft inside.

YES. Gellert reaches through the bars to stroke Albus’ jaw and whatever Albus was trying to say just trails off. He knows he should pull away, but…

He never realized how miserable he was. How much he craved this. There were times he was lonely, yes, but it was such a constant background ache that he didn’t even realize how much it hurt until it stopped.

Gellert doesn’t say anything, just smirks and caresses Albus’ cheek; his lips. Runs fingers down his neck to unknot his tie. Albus breathes out a shuddery sigh of relief and lets him.

In CoG there was this scene where Albus stood in front of the mirror of Erised. I like to think that sometimes he went there all alone at night, looking at Gellert in the mirror and pleasuring himself. The guilt (bc of Ariana) and pain Albus must feel, and still he can’t resist stroking himself while watching Grindelwald smirk. I like to think that somehow Gellert knows and enjoys it.

The poor man… I love it though. He knows exactly what it feels like to go mad in front of that mirror, aching for the touch of hands he can see but never feel, the sound of a voice when he can see lips moving but never hear it. All the guilt and shame and pain welling up in his chest, and he comes gazing into Grindelwald’s eyes, a sob ripped from his throat.

Idk how Gellert would know, but I love the image tbh – how smug he’d be knowing what his memory is doing to Albus after all these years.

an-nath:

For the greater good.

Hi, I read the prompt about legilimency sex and now I imagine it the other way round: Grindelwald being held captive at Macusa, alone, in complete dark and complete silence, not able to move. Total sensory deprivation. And Albus torturing him with these thoughts and pictures so that Grindelwald can FEEL it… but it is never enough to let him orgasm and he slowly goes mad

Yessss this is good too. Everything Albus does is amplified by the total deprivation, and Gellert doesn’t know whether he craves it as relief from the horrible all encompassing nothing, or dreads it for the almost painful frustration and need it leaves him with. Perhaps he tried to shut Albus out of his mind at first, but after a while he just… stopped fighting it. It’s the only thing he’s been allowed to feel for… days? Weeks? Maybe even months, he doesn’t know. It’s impossible to keep track of time in the total darkness.

Perhaps Albus stopped for a while, and that’s what broke him – the fear that he’d never be allowed to experience touch again, that he’d be trapped forever in this hell, this yawning void, and when Albus enters his mind again – finally, after so long – he would have sobbed with relief if he’d been capable of making a sound.

No one at MACUSA knows it’s happening of course. Gellert can’t speak, he can’t move, all he can do is sit there in total silence and isolation while the entire outside world slowly ceases to exist for him. All that’s left are Albus’ touches on his mind.

Legilimency sex. Gellert torturing Albus with that while he has to teach..

OH. Yes, good. Not many people are powerful or skilled enough to get past Albus’ defenses, but Gellert does. He forces all manner of sensations and images on him, and they’re all so very pleasurable. When he’s eating breakfast, when he’s teaching, when he’s in the staff room with colleagues, and all he can do is suffer through it while pretending his deepest wish isn’t for Gellert to be here, now, doing these things to him in person.

Dark!Albus/Gellert, dark!Newt/Gellert. AU. Non-consensual. Newt fucks magically bound Gellert in front of Albus, who enjoys seeing defeat in Gellert’s eyes and then “tasting” it in all his body. And Newt… Newt just enjoys taming wild nature.

WOAH this is inspired?? I love it. Especially because, imagine what it would take for Gellert to break – someone that proud, with that much conviction. But Newt is patient, knows just the right places to push, and eventually even the strongest creature will yield. And Albus, a look of triumph, satisfaction, in his eyes as he watches his lover-turned-rival give up. Finally, after all these years, Gellert Grindelwald has broken – and it’s a beautiful sight.

Seriously anon, thank you for sending this to me!